~Crazy Summer Fun~

I have had one heck of a summer so far!! It's been very eventful, to say the least. I've went to the beach and had a blast on numerous occasions, I've went bowling, me and my fam set off enough fireworks to get us put under the jail, and my latest adventure was deep sea fishing, which I absolutely loved!! It was scary, dangerous, exciting and fun all balled up into one. Oh, let me not forget exhausting! Reeling those humongous fish in was difficult for a physically weak gal like me. I'm proud to say that I caught the biggest fish of the day...a 14lb king mackerel. I wasn't strong enough to reel him all the way in and needed a little help from the deck man, but I caught him on my first try of putting the line in (the hook never even reach the bottom). In total I caught 49lbs of fish and the rest of my group caught 48lbs which gave us 87lbs in total. Do I need to tell you that we're having a fish fry?!? I thank God for the Dramamine that saved me from sea sickness. Our boat went 15 miles off the coast of Pensacola, FL, which took 2 hours on a charter boat. We spent 4 hours fishing and close to 4 just riding. The successful fishing definitely made up for the draining and time-consuming ride out. It was an experience I will remember forever! Deep sea fishing is a VERY nice thing to add to my resume of life and I hope to go again real soon.

The Coast Is Clear!

Well, I've finally moved to the place that I absolutely love....the Emerald Coast! I felt just a little homesick my first night here and it only lasted about a hour (if that). It felt so surreal when I first arrived. A completely different feeling than the feeling of being here on vacation. For a brief moment I was in a state of disbelief. I couldn't believe I had actually...moved (though I never doubted). Everything had went so smoothly, just as I had planned. So smooth, in fact, that I didn't spend much time thinking about the feat ahead of me. And when I actually did take a step back and dissect the task at hand, it was done...I was here! A flood of emotions came over me and I laughed hysterically on the phone with my friend Lottie. We both repeated..."Oh my gosh, I can't believe you/I moved to Florida!" Our conversation was quite funny and just what I needed when reality tapped me on the shoulder. I thank God that I already feel at home and I can definitely feel the prayers from my loved ones. I can see myself being here forever but I have learned not to put anything in stone. I don't know everything that God has in store for me because He's always working behind the scenes. However, I DO know that I will always follow the path that God wants me to follow...Only He can lead me to my destiny.

For Him

Just when I think I can't get any happier, You show me otherwise. It's nothing material really or anything that people can see on the outside that's making me want to jump for joy. It's the change that has taken place within me that has me overwhelmed with love and happiness. Well, I guess it shines through for people to see to an extent (hopefully it does), but I feel no one can truly understand how far You have brought me. Just a short few years ago, I was absolutely drowning in doubt, shame, and self-pity but You have completely turned me around. Even though I believe from the depths of my soul that all things are possible with You, I'm still in amazement at how You have blessed me. There's nothing anyone can say or do to make me doubt Your existence because You have revealed Yourself to me in ways that my little ole' mind couldn't even fathom.

My Agape

A love above all others that only God could've opened my eyes to. My pride wanted me to fight it, control it, hide from it, run from it, ignore it, and even disguise it. And I tried all of these things just to avoid humility. But now I realize that humility comes with the territory. Even though love is the most beautiful gift from God (God is love), I tried to do everything but embrace it. But true love never fails, and now I know why! At this point there's nothing else left to do. So embrace I shall! I can't imagine the Eros ever disappearing but just in case it does, I got back up!

Way Outta The Box

I will be moving to Florida really soon and this seems to take some people by surprise. Not many seem to believe it's really going to happen, which I find very hard to understand. I guess I just expect people to know that once I've made up my mind about something, it's a done deal. But I now realize that for most people, seeing is believing. Trust me...I was the last person to believe that I would ever move away from Johnson City and I never even had the desire to do so in the past. So I know that this is a desire that God has placed within me. It would be so much easier to stay in my familiar territory but I know that my personal growth is coming close to a halt. I need to be challenged in order to continue growing and I honestly believe that I have grown as much as I possibly can in Johnson City, TN. Although I pray for my transition to go smoothly, I am on guard for a bumpy road. It's not easy to relocate to another state (especially with children) but I'm embracing it wholeheartedly. I know I'm relying on nothing but my faith in God and I'll definitely be strengthened in the process. I'm mostly excited to see what's in store but the difficulty of the situation sometimes makes me nervous. I'll NEVER stop needing prayers so please remember me in yours!

We All Need It!

It's hard to forgive and maybe even impossible to forget...but it must be done. In order for us to receive mercy, we must be merciful. And while we're at it, we might as well be gracious too because none of us are worthy enough for grace.

Grace gives to us the things which we DO NOT deserve...Mercy keeps us from what we actually DO deserve.

Yes...It's True

I have found myself once again single but never have I been this happy after a break-up. I guess that's what happens when you're truly happy before starting the relationship. What can I say...it just wasn't meant to be. There are a number of valid reasons why I ended the relationship but it all comes down to one thing...I felt like I was settling. My heart was not content. I often ask myself, "Am I expecting too much...perfection maybe?" But I don't think so. I just know what I want and I won't settle for less! To do so would put limitations on God. I need someone who challenges me to be my absolute best, and I definitely do NOT want to lead a man (I have enough children). He should be leading me...AND in the right direction. The guy I was dating was not a terrible guy...just not for me. And there are no bad feelings between us.

I will admit that my standards are a little high for a single mother of three, but hey...I now know my value. There's something to be learned from everyone that God allows to come into your life. So I will take what I have learned and use it to make improvements on myself.